Epic Fail wtf went wrong?

ok so as my other post said I went out with my ex, wore

72 inches of Nude Alpha + 3 drops of 10mcg Dienone + 2 sprays of glac

just to avoid dienone depression I put a little drop of old Androtics' Dirty on a q-tip and rubbed a bit in my nostrils

So we went to grab a bite to a hamburger joint... It all went downhill from there.. wow did the convo went deep... too deep meaning of life etc, I felt the need to connect too much. I of course resisted.

Tried to kino but she resisted, hold her hand took it back, tried to hug her, she went stiff.

Oh my god terrible...

I felt awkward I wasn't creating enough attraction. I got to admit it, it was my game also. But it isn't that my game is bad, yes I haven't had a lot of practice with 1st dates lately (just broke up a long relationship) but the thing is I was lost in my feelings, if it had been for what I felt at the moment I would have told her that I love her and miss her (wtf? self effects? I haven't seen her for 4 years so no reason to feel that way), I just really needed to bond.

I battled so much I she sometimes went: "what are you thinking of?" because I was really introspective.

Any ideas?